I am battling an urge to reach out for a bottle. But I d feel like a looser again. ALcohol nevr helps, woe is me. But instead I'll make it work, not head for the door as I am tempted and yet disgusted by my ability to take even more.

I won't let myself so susceptible. He is only human.

Well, it isn't anything that I haven't known about you earlier. So what has changed? I had a huge desire to lash out & scream but I am in the company of others. So I reacted just ok & tried to listen hard to their plans to go out.

Yea, I am in. And i'll wear Red