So she is pregnant. For a spilt second I felt something in my heart and it went off..I didnt try to decipher what it meant. well, I had dreams where i would wake up with the feelings of having fed a baby from my breast. It would be so real that I d take a nasty cold shower to come out..sometimes, i let the feeling linger just a wee bit. Just before the reality of my situation creeps in my head and i try and shrugged it off.

I miss mom when she tries to stay awake by my side when i m ill and she'd doze off after a long tiring day, cooking and washing. Miss the sound of her breathing...like a subtle snore, reassuring and so familiar. Gosh, I miss her. And baba.